dream experts out there; i need a session of dream therapy. i have a re-occurring appearance of someone in my dreams. in my dreams we aren't dating or anything, we are friends and just spend time, this is something i have wished to have back. i can't excape him. i don't wish to be with him, i am not in love with him, but he won't stay out of my dreams. maybe i wish i had what we had. an all around happy, loving, carefree relationship. don't get me wrong i am happy with demetrios but i still feel like a huge chunk of me is missing. this is the part of me which allows me to trust, to be content, and confident. i don't want to have put too much on his plate, i feel like i expect him to take back everything that hurt me. i know this is something which is impossible.
i just want to be carefree and in love.