again i find myself at adelle's coffee house in dover. sitting outside painting. i feel like such a pretentious asshole. sitting outside smoking butts on my macbook painting and reading. not drinking coffee. hot chocolate with steamed soy milk.
last night was terrible to say the least. i caused trouble because i was depressed/still am depressed. when i am depressed i can't handle my emotions let alone think about someone else's. so whatever. patched things up with d but i am still a mess.
i also took five neurotin last night. to put me in a better mood. and it worked but since i took them so late and woke up so early they just wore off. kinda. driving was a mess my pupils still won't dialate. whatever.
i think i'm staying in dover for the day. till about 4 or 5 when d gets out of drills. what am i going to do? i'm not sure, i might drive to portsmouth and take pictures with my polaroid. i stole another from ...can't say, and a pack of film as well. i looked on ebay and they are selling polaroid film pretty cheap and there are some black and white ones. i'm hoping d will lend me the money till i get my paycheck next friday so i can bid on them!