i hate the fourth of july. well atleast this one. having a really bad day. spending it watching the tour de france, getting drunk, eating edamame, sulking about my horrible life and the mistakes i continue to make.

i really love demetrios, really really do. but sometimes i feel like he treats me like shit and doesn't apreciate all the hard work i do, or maybe just doesnt reconize it. he thinks its okay to snap at me, and swear at me when i ask a "stupid" question. how is it a stupid question if i really don't know the answer or know how he's going to respond.

i'm excited that my lance armstrong is riding in the tour de france this year, really the only reason im watching, i watched most of his past tour de frances. he's currently in first. thats my boy and an inspiration to us all.