who's ever idea it was!
9.01.2009 Tuesday, September 01, 2009"killing the mood" may be your forte but mine seems to be making sure things don't go smoothy.
the downward spiral began friday. i spent the day of my love's birth gallivanting and doing things he wanted to do. we headed up to portland the boys all excited. i was already anxious to be driving around, waiting around, and playing mommy. it turned out not to be that bad although i was already anxious and that feeling wouldn't suffice. by the time we made it back to saco i was feeling worse than ever. i wouldn't even have minded if we didn't have to go out to ad put happy face on for family members from all over. as the night continued i continued to feel worse. puking ended our long adventure of a night.
things did not get any better the next day, but alot worse. we were shopping and spending the rest demetri's birthday money. i however had to make the day difficult by losing my keys luckily, after hours of searching, someone turned them into the customer service desk at kohls. made our way home and relaxed after our movie.
mondays are always the worst so i was NOT excited to see how this day turned out. since school was starting later in the week i decided to check out everything online and make sure its all in order. but apparently school started on the the 31st. so, MONDAY! since i had already missed my first class i decided to head to school and talk to my financial aid lady to defer my payments and sign for my loans. knowing anything about me you know it didnt happen that way. looks like i'm taking a semester or two off of school. i am more upset than i have been in ages.
i'm waiting for the right time to tell my father. which must be tonight i can't wait too long. i am just not looking forward to the lecture, the questions- which i can't answer. he's going to think i didn't want to go which is not the truth, i wanted to go to school more than anything this semester i've been talking about it for months now.
to make my monday worse, when we pulled into the driveway apparently i pressed the lock button, and so i don't lose my keys i ALWAYS leave them in my car. put one and one together and again i screwed up.
now this makes all the above better. <3
the downward spiral began friday. i spent the day of my love's birth gallivanting and doing things he wanted to do. we headed up to portland the boys all excited. i was already anxious to be driving around, waiting around, and playing mommy. it turned out not to be that bad although i was already anxious and that feeling wouldn't suffice. by the time we made it back to saco i was feeling worse than ever. i wouldn't even have minded if we didn't have to go out to ad put happy face on for family members from all over. as the night continued i continued to feel worse. puking ended our long adventure of a night.
things did not get any better the next day, but alot worse. we were shopping and spending the rest demetri's birthday money. i however had to make the day difficult by losing my keys luckily, after hours of searching, someone turned them into the customer service desk at kohls. made our way home and relaxed after our movie.
mondays are always the worst so i was NOT excited to see how this day turned out. since school was starting later in the week i decided to check out everything online and make sure its all in order. but apparently school started on the the 31st. so, MONDAY! since i had already missed my first class i decided to head to school and talk to my financial aid lady to defer my payments and sign for my loans. knowing anything about me you know it didnt happen that way. looks like i'm taking a semester or two off of school. i am more upset than i have been in ages.
i'm waiting for the right time to tell my father. which must be tonight i can't wait too long. i am just not looking forward to the lecture, the questions- which i can't answer. he's going to think i didn't want to go which is not the truth, i wanted to go to school more than anything this semester i've been talking about it for months now.
to make my monday worse, when we pulled into the driveway apparently i pressed the lock button, and so i don't lose my keys i ALWAYS leave them in my car. put one and one together and again i screwed up.
now this makes all the above better. <3she's lost it