more letters, more poems, they don't fix what you've done, what you've said and so forth. i was and am wrong in the things i do, i know, and unfortunately i can live with these mistakes. the time passing only makes this harder. the resentment grows and the love practically ceases to exist. i may be a fool but in the end i will be a happy fool. smiling, laughing, and loving life.
in the mean time i will continue to make these mistakes. i will continue to allow my "big brain" (quoting vonnegut) lead me astray and ruin what is my past and what was to be my/our future.
i've got this train going full steam ahead, i have now no intentions of pulling the break. i'm letting this train wreck right before our eyes. don't kid yourself, cause you don't kid me, in saying you didn't see this coming, C'MON we all did. do you really thing something THIS forced could work it self out? sadly, i did.
i looked through our last photos, none of the two of us. all of you, me snapping shots of you trying to enjoy your last few days as a free man.
and don't pull that i'm scared card, we all pull that card when we begin to drift away from someone we thought we were meant to be with. in your case it's pure disrespect. you've taken from me, my family, your friends, your family. i could understand me, whats mine was yours and vice versa. arghhH!

i wrecked my car today.